Welcome to Miracle Monday! I love to share everyday miracle's to remind us that God is still a healing, delivering, forgiving, miracle working God. Today my post is a little different then usual, but I hope you will be blessed and encouraged by it!
I had a particularly hard week last week. I was fairly sick to begin with, so I started out exhausted and weary. We had a huge Thanksgiving dinner at our church on Saturday and it was a lot of work to prepare for. But the hardest part for me was emotionally. I had a friend who delivered a beautiful baby girl, another friend ready to deliver in a few weeks and was told Saturday morning when I arrived at church that another friend is pregnant. As excited as I am for them all to receive their tiny blessings, I had a mini-meltdown.
Our 15th anniversary is tomorrow and it feels bitter sweet to me. We have survived so much together,
21 surgeries,
death,
cancer diagnosis,
failed adoption and, hardest of all
infertility diagnosis. While I thank God that our marriage has survived all this and we are stronger then ever, I still feel frustrated! I've done everything God has asked of me. I push and strive to be everything I can for Him! I sacrifice so much and try to be as obedient to His word as a person is able. Why hasn't my miracle happened yet?
For 2 days I quoted scriptures to myself, telling myself to get a grip!
"For the promises of God in him are YEA, and in him AMEN, unto the glory of God by us" 2 Corinthians 1:20
"And being fully persuaded, that what he had promised, he was able also to perform" Romans 4:21
"O Lord my God, I cried unto thee, and thou hast healed me" Psalms 30: 2
"In my distress I cried unto the Lord, and he heard me" Psalms 120:1
"But He was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities, the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed" Isaiah 53:5
"But ye brethren, weary not in well doing" 2 Thessalonians 3:13
"For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind." 1 Timothy 1:7
"Finally brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of a good report, if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things" Philippians 4:8
I thought I was doing good encouraging myself until God woke me up at 3am this morning. "Sarah, those scriptures are great but you are forgetting a very important one ...
"And Moses said unto God, Behold, when I come unto the children of Israel, and shall say unto them, The God of your fathers hath sent me unto you; and they shall say to me, What is his name? what shall I say unto them? And God said unto Moses, I AM THAT I AM: and he said, Thus shalt thou say unto the children of Israel, I AM hath sent me unto you." Exodus 3:13-14
I AM
?? What God?? What does that have to do with my healing?
"Everything, Sarah! Everything!"
If I could earn my healing by determination and will, I would already have it. But I can't ever earn the grace of God. I will never be good enough, holy enough or righteous enough. Now don't get me wrong, obedience and sacrifice are very important to God. But they are not what heals me. What heals me is I AM!
I AM created the universe, the heavens and the earth!
I AM is supreme chief over the heavenly hosts and principalities of darkness!
I AM spoke and created man out of the dust of the earth!
I AM knows all, sees all, hears all and is everywhere!
I AM loves
me!
I don't even know if I can put into words properly the magnitude of what I am feeling right now. The greatest miracle that has ever happened in my life is I AM holds me in his arms! So why do I fear and fret and worry? Don't I realize that I AM knows, understands and cares about
me? Do I really get it? Do I really understand what a miracle that is?
Today I am thankful for the miracle that
I AM knows
me!